EGO TRIPPING POEM

Poem for Creative Writing Class. Prompt: Ego Tripping.

I was never born to stay

Ever since the beginning of my life I’ve been changing

Flowing as steady as the river

but ebbing and charging like the roll of a tide

I leave

Reluctantly I pack my bags and don’t look back

But I often do

And even when the baggage becomes too heavy for my small heart

I carry on

I’ve never liked change

It leaves a sour taste in my mouth

It makes me burn and I repeatedly have to recreate myself from the ashes of my former selves

I am a phoenix

I die and am born again

I don’t remember the past. 

I forget rather than forgive

Often finding it easier to move on than stay

Each stop on my travels adds a little bit more weight to my luggage

So I try to create myself anew

Each time I try to rid what I can of my collections

Each time I try to forget the mistakes I’m leaving behind

Each time I find a friendly face with a personality that I haven’t met before

Each time I adopt a new personality that is never my own

Each time I steal and copy those and create the image that people want from me

And then I leave

I am God

And every time I meet a new person I have the opportunity to recreate myself

I can forget all the horrors and regrets of my past

I find myself

It never happens quickly

With every change, I learn what I love and hate

And that is who I become

I have never been my own

But I am completely myself.